hello ..
went to visit my father's godmother on tuesday ,17/07/2007.
she had liver cancer , & she was so skinny , it was practically skin & bones .
She watched me grow up , & you could say in a way that we were quite close ..
& she was a nice & kind old lady in her late sixties , but with very little white hair . She was suspected to have cancer last year , but she had chemo & killed all the cancer cells . Then earlier this year , around march , she went back for a a checkup & she found that she had a relapse of the cancer . The doctor had 'predicted' that she would live until the starting of july , but she didn't go . then the doctor gave her another 3 weeks . & she outlived that . then now , the doctor gave her until end of july ..

ahma , can you not leave me ?

When i went to visit her , the way she looked at me just made me wouldn't stop crying . i don't know why .. Her eyes , it was full of sadness & tiredness .. The way she was , it was just so pitiful - couldn't walk or stand , & her body was aching badly & also painful , as she now had internal bleeding . When i was hiding in room just beside hers , trying not to let her see that i was crying cos that would make her worried & unhappy.. she asked my mum who that girl in the white shirt was (me) , & upon hearing that , i cried even harder . i just couldn't bear to let her leave me .
Sigh .. she might be gone soon , in a few weeks' time . I only have the little memories to hold on to . Ahma , please don't go ..

Stay with me . don't leave ..

♥ 2:45:00 PM